Monday, July 12, 2010

Sad day today...

~Shirley Van Neck~
March 23, 1955 - July 13, 1999

I can only imagine what it will be like, when I walk by Your side...
I can only imagine, what my eyes will see, when Your Face is before me!
I can only imagine. I can only imagine.
Surrounded by Your Glory, what will my heart feel?
Will I dance for you, Jesus? Or in awe of You, be still?
Will I stand in Your presence, or to my knees will I fall?
Will I sing 'Hallelujah!'? Will I be able to speak at all?
I can only imagine! I can only imagine!
I can only imagine, when that day comes,
when I find myself standing in the Son!
I can only imagine, when all I will do, is forever, forever worship You!
I can only imagine! I can only imagine!
Surrounded by Your Glory, what will my heart feel?
Will I dance for you, Jesus? Or in awe of You, be still?
Will I stand in Your presence, or to my knees will I fall?
Will I sing 'Hallelujah!'? Will I be able to speak at all?
I can only imagine! Yeah! I can only imagine!
I can only imagine! Yeah! I can only imagine! I can only imagine!
Yeah! I can only imagine!! Only imagine!!!I can only imagine.
I can only imagine, when all I do is forever, forever worship You!
I can only imagine.

I don't know what I'll do when I get to Heaven to meet Jesus but I am sure looking forward to being reunited with my Mom. It's been 11 years and it's by the grace of God that I get through some days. I think about her daily and although the pain of missing her is duller than it used to be, I still feel sad when I think about her.
I think she would be a wonderful Oma to Joshua, Andrea, Arianna, Sarah, Benjamin and Lucy. She would have doted on them and loved them so much.
When I have a cup of tea, I'm reminded of how much she enjoyed a few cups during the day. My sister and I even drink it the way she did hers... sweet with milk.
Mom had kept a journal and in it she had written some of her fears about the heart surgery and leaving her family. His answer to her was "I love you and I love your family and no matter what the outcome, I will take care of all of you." I have truly felt His hands around me during the last 11 years. She wanted us to keep our faith strong and to keep trusting in Jesus. I hope I'm doing a good job of that.

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