Is this how you imagined your life would be?
Yes and no. I knew that marriage and a family were going to be critical part of my future but I don't think I really ever imagined my life with teenagers or a daughter who falls under the "special needs" umbrella. I grew up playing with dolls and always pretending to be a mom but as you might know, dolls seldom get past the imaginary age of 3 or 4. As my first two kids approached their preteen years, I was entering a whole new parenting level that I knew very little about. Thankfully they didn't morph into teens quickly and we've all been able to grow together. Sarah has mild cerebral palsy, microcephaly and is globally developmentally delayed. No little girl pretends her doll has disabilities or delays. Now that I'm living this life, I'm dealing with it one day (or even one hour) at a time. My children are my greatest blessings and I love each one of them with all my heart. So, it's not how I imagined my life to be but it's not something I'd trade in either.
What's your drink of choice when out with girlfriends?
That's easy, coffee. Always coffee.
How did your blog come about?
It started in 2007 when I would journal about our holidays or the kids' birthdays. I think it really took off in 2011 when Sarah's diagnosis' started to really come in. My blog was my journal where I recorded every medical visit, test and result. It was my place to share my joys, frustrations and tears. I needed the blog to keep track of dates and things that I'd learn about Sarah. I love blogging. It's my outlet and it helps to organize me.
What do you love about yourself?
Doug's traveling has made me become fairly independent. I am confident that I could handle pretty much whatever when he's out of town. Joshua and I were even saying that between the two of us, we could probably change a flat tire on our own if we had to. In his absences, I have painted parts of the house, learned how to mud and sand walls, shovelled snow, mowed the lawn and even figured out computer things as needed. I like the parent that I've become as well. Although I've made my fair share of mistakes I think I'm doing an alright job with them.
If money were no question, I'd purchase...
I'd pay off my mortgage to eliminate that payment. I think it'd be a lovely thing to be able to say that our house is paid for in full. Then I'd take a month long trip (via airplane) to visit with friends in Alabama. Really, I'd go to Alabama.
What's your biggest struggle in life?
Almost every day (and sometimes more) I have a brief moment of being sad for myself and Sarah. I suppose you could call it a "feel sorry for myself" kind of party. I usually can pull myself up and move on in a short amount of time and I try hard not to dwell on the negatives but rather take joy in the positives. This is a struggle because it takes a concerted effort sometimes. To ask God to "grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference." I can't change Sarah. I can't force development on her. But I can do my best to encourage, support and teach her to the best of my abilities.
Now I'm supposed to chose three other bloggers to share as well so I've invited Joy, Sylvia and Michelle to share about themselves!